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[Jan. 5th, 2005|11:34 pm] |
today i was bored so i went to the yale art gallery. i didn't really go to see the gallery i guess. there's one particular painting i know is in their american art exhibit and i had to see it up close. there was a lot of ugly modern art and furniture shit but finally i found the room with all the hopper paintings. i sat for a while and stared at it while two gay guys ooooed and ahhhed over rooms by the sea.
sunlight in cafeteria is the most desperately lonely painting i have ever seen. the clincher for me, of course, is that it is a man and a woman sitting in a restaurant (you know, if you cant share a meal with someone you cant love them) and he wants to talk to her but it's too awkward. the whole scene is just completely awkward. she has that look on her face, playing with her thumbs like she knows she's alone but wants it to seem like she's fine with it. she wants him to say something to her. she wants to let him in, to say "hey, sit at this table with me and we'll get to know eachother" but it isnt going to happen. people always say hopper's nighthawks is depressing, but it isnt. too much interaction. |
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[May. 7th, 2004|11:32 pm] |
ive these schemes of
stalking noam
goin where he likes to be
and then i'd sing
him this poem
and he would make out with me
you know i start them and i never can finish. whoever correctly guesses what song that is gets a prize (me thinking of more lyrics) |
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[Apr. 25th, 2004|12:57 am] |
i hate:
people who cant spell(excluding rachel)
never knowing what i actually want
eating a large chilli(from wendys oh man) and two slices of pizza right before i go to bed
when my ankles are itchy
when my computer gets all slow and deathly
school on monday
hangnails
i love:
sleeping
you |
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[Apr. 22nd, 2004|12:29 pm] |
Stuff I Like:
+ Maroon 5 songs that are really Kara’s Flowers songs
+ The word “padded” when used as a verb
+ The video for Blink182’s “First Date”
+ Stir fried cauliflower
+ Foote School in the summer when it’s cloudy
+ Feeling someone else’s (clean) bare feet on mine
+ When my mom sits on my bed and talks to me
+ The way my brother gets really excited when he buys electronics
+ T-shirts that just came out of the dryer
+ Elvis movies
+ The Uncle Scrooge comic book where they fly to some lush planet and make a bridge between that one and another desolate one
+ The Ducktales movie holy SHIT
+ Running down stairs and jumping off the second to last step
+ Actually catching the clock at 11:11
+ Picking my big toe nail
+ Hemp anklets
+ Henry when he wears those really tight pinstripey pants
+ Colleen’s hair
+ Pictures of lighthouses when the sun is setting
+ Guys with sideburns that aren’t really hair, just kind of visible stubble
+ Button down shirts with the sleeves rolled up and the collar open
+ Rugs that aren’t fluffy, the kind of hard ones that you can bounce a ball on
+ When I save my papers with filenames that are unrelated and then I can’t remember which ones they were when I try to look for them
+ Random unprovoked mentions in someone else’s livejournal
+ Sneezing
Stuff I Dislike:
- When people have pet names for eachother
- Art History
- When my brother talks to me about the exciting electronic stuff he buys
- Dry Skin
- Cities when it's really early in the morning
- Burps that feel like you're going to barf
- Sitting for a long time
- Taking a shower and then sitting around inside and never having your hair dry and feeling gross and weird
- Biting my nails than touching my hair
- Dust
- People talking when I really don't want to listen |
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[Apr. 15th, 2004|07:57 pm] |
it is nearly april vacation and we're rapidly coming up on what i have, during the past several weeks of deep contemplation and sleepless nights, dubbed to be the endgame.
i want to be stupid and go lawn shopping
i want to get shitfaced like no other
i want to lie in bed all morning and then play basketball
i want to give in
i want to be ignored
i want to be overzealous about rap
i want to be indecisive
do you think that would be a good idea?
feel free to play along
tonight i drove past the carnival when it was all lit up and i felt this terrible nostlagia for nothing real in particular
today in shakespeare i had such an urge to start smoking again but i remembered how weird it felt to not be in control of yourself. and granted it felt really good sometimes but other times it was kind of annoying and you couldn't stop it and then there was the hallucinating thing and i guess that's really been detering me for months.
well, actually the last time i smoked for real was with noam, which was after the time i flipped out....when we listened to phish(so cliche!) and painted boxes at the arts and ideas festival and read poetry to eachother. and it was such a clean high and i didn't want it to end.
right. enough of that.
i feel really detached from this show in terms of my position. but congrats to amanda who got a seceret compliment from mr. nyquist today who said she's been doing so much better this week and is "really opening up in her scenes." way to gooooo douchebag. although the best comments were the quiet, embittered remarks he made about jake not being funny and no knowing his lines and so on and so forth.
let's end this entry before we get bored, shall we? |
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[Apr. 11th, 2004|08:50 pm] |
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just now, i was coloring in my german picture word book when i decided to check livejournal and noticed douchebag mcgee (colleen) had posted and then i thought to myself, jesus fucking christ i havent talked to colleen in weeks. and its been making me very sad and i miss her a lot. like a lot a lot. like she's my special megadyke and i just dont feel like a lesbian without her. so colleen, im going to instant message you riiiight...now |
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[Apr. 9th, 2004|06:10 pm] |
today i was driving to matt's house so we could go play frisbee (which was fun even though i barely even played that particular sport) and aaron copland was playing on NPR and i wanted to absolutely shit myself. i was so excited about it that i waited to hear the end of the song when i stopped at krauszers to get water. awesome.
um anyway, related issue is that i think i've always wanted to live out west. but not west like, southern california woo im so cool. rather, old west out west, with a farm and cattle and horses and a semi-log cabin (the logs could just be for decoration) and i'd wake up and it would be the old west, but not too old because then everyone would be shooting eachother. late 1800s would be fine with me. or even early 1900s if that was the best i could get. and it would be really fun, and really pretty, and just..the west. anyone? i think it seems really adventurous to me, which is why i like it. not california..maybe colorado or montana or one of those crap states out there.
i shouldnt call them crap!
also my other lifelong dream, which i succesfully fulfilled an hour ago, was to play with the nitebrite basketball for the first time this year.
maybe i just want to have a farm because the new couches smell like 400 cows had to die to make them. |
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[Apr. 8th, 2004|04:39 am] |
um, do you ever hear random beeping?
like an alarm going off but for two seconds and you cant find it?
i hear it in my house everyday
weird?
yeah
i think it might be a watch but im not sure
mission operative: seek and destroy |
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[Apr. 6th, 2004|11:47 pm] |
today was one of the first days in a while that i felt like shit
like i really felt like shit all day. i overslept, fucked rachel over, didnt make amanda breakfast, didnt do any work. didnt change for gym. came home dead tired and cleaned my room alllllllll afternoon, didnt get to sleep. went to the second seder at family friends, left at 11:15, we werent even done but i had to come home so i could do work and such, had all these funny stories from dinner that i cant even remember.
i could read them forever and still wish it was then |
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[Apr. 5th, 2004|06:49 pm] |
i figure i should update now since the next break i get will be when it's time to go to bed.
umm, lets see
came home early, helped my mom clean which was really, really annoying. spent 20 minutes looking for macaroons in stop and shop with my mom yelling into the phone about where i should look and maybe i should just buy the coconut stuff and make the macaroons myself and isnt that a good idea? ok mom. great idea.
run into five million jewish people, all probably doing the same thing as me. come home. clean more. polished the kiddush cups (oh jesus im so jewish)and then i set the table, my family was quite disappointed when i told them amanda couldn't come..my brother said now he'd have to actually talk to other people. ummmm i tried the turkey when my mom wasnt looking, that was a fun stealth mission. and you know what? the UCONN GAME IS ON IN 3 HOURS BABY. also my dad was just carving the turkey and i ate half of it. and you know what else? i discovered that snapple (Well, diet raspberry iced tea, at least) is kosher for passover!
it will be on in my brothers room. i will excuse myself every few minutes. everyone will think i have diarrhea. woot. so thats it until later when maybe i can sneak away. dinner is soon. the gears are churning to a new john mayer song about passover. and i guess since its mostly about slavery, renee can like it too. sorry colleen. im thinking to the tune of no such thing..
welcome to the exodus
he said to me
dominatingly
part the seas
take your strife
don't forget that i own your life |
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[Apr. 4th, 2004|12:18 am] |
things of importance:
1) until just now, i had not opened my refridgerator once today. kind of weird, right?
2) i've been reading a lot of mary oliver lately. and then when i go read other pieces of literature, ones that aren't particularly about nature, i don't like them because, well..they aren't about nature.
3) uconn fucking WON. holy shit, they played so badly the entire game but at the end, it was almost like..ok, we'll just play a little now so we can win. like they knew they were going to be fine the whole time and then when it got down to it, just played a little harder.
4) JOHN MAYER AND MAROON 5 ON AUGUST 15TH (pre-sale on wednesday!)
5) where did my comedic timing and humorous nature go? lately i feel like every joke i make is one of the following: bad, funny and unappreciated, criticized until it wasnt funny anymore, or terribly forced. i think i sort of had it back tonight, but for the past couple days its felt very..absent. good word usage daf
6) being british never, ever gets old. ever.
7) {monkey noises}
8) my face has been really messy lately, which i think i can attribute to a cold im in the process of getting. really now, wtf.
9) WICKED DURING APRIL BREAK....i hope.
10) so tired |
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[Feb. 8th, 2004|09:40 pm] |
umm so i was just thinking, as i looked through people who i dont really know but who are friends with people i know profiles, (did that make sense? im talking about their profiles) i see the lego porn thing everywhere. did i start that trend by putting it in my profile?
i'd like to think im just that cool.
unfortunately, however, i am not.
today i was pulling out of kirra's driveway and my tires started burning and it smelled bad and i spun out and went onto herlawn and then i like flew back into the driveway and sped up and hit the curb.
it was really great.
steve trying to tell me to succeed:
trickskis360: i only want you to sucide |
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[Feb. 5th, 2004|08:08 pm] |
I said
"Honey, I don't feel so good, dont feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void,"
he said
"It's all in your head,"
and I said,
"So's everything"
But he didn't get it
i have discovered the joys of actually rolling down the street
granted i wasnt smoking endo
or sipping on gin and juice
but i was laid back
with my mind on my monKey
and of course, my monkey on my mind |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2004|07:53 pm] |
ummm i dont want an assistant to the director
they just get in the way and undermine my authority and think they know everything and eat out the directors ass
pre-apologies in case anyone who reads this is director's assistant for the show
but im going to dislike being around you
at least you wont be rachel reynolds.
...or will you...
maybe i have gotten funnier over the last year. not like haha funny. like sarcastic and witty funny. maybe..yeah. maybe i was totally funny before. it was just not a very advanced sort of humor..maybe my brother just came in to tell me how he can't stop peeing
maybe if i fail tomorrow i will drive into oncoming traffic and just end it there |
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[Feb. 1st, 2004|08:10 pm] |
i downloaded a lot of music today
mostly Mae and the postal service
i kind of like the postal service, there's something very calming about them and their electronica
whenever i sit here and type something, i always pause and stare at the smiling face of Paula Zahn taped to my wall. she's like my guardian angel. asking and answering the days most challenging questions..she's PAULA ZAHN NOW!
but anyway, i went outside to get the groceries from the car and the moon is like, disturbingly bright. the sky was very clear and everything was bright and glowy and it was all very mesmorizing. cold and mesmorizing.
thats what she said
and honestly, thats all i have to say
because nothing is going on at all |
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[Feb. 1st, 2004|12:41 pm] |
i feel really hungover right now. i dont particularly understand why seeing as i didn't do anything last night.
also, what? i feel like its still yesterday
how is it sunday already |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2004|09:56 pm] |
i realized tonight how disgustingly ungrateful and impatient i am
especially with my family
it makes me want to cry |
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[Jan. 15th, 2004|08:44 pm] |
that was probably the funniest laskin dinner in months
i honestly almost started peeing in my pants |
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[Jan. 14th, 2004|09:01 pm] |
i had a really good today
ive actually been having really good days lately
so thats it, really
its a shame that i cant think of everything thats been great
but they happened
sooooo yeah |
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